Drew this to represent how I was feeling after our last session with Safety Queen on Friday July th 2012
(In honour of trusting her and taking her hand to help guide me, we are wrapped together by my ribbon (Goy Goy) Question: Color or no color? She said, (when I was struggling and crying) that her office I could call home. This made me cry hard, I felted warm, care for. It was awesome and overwhelming if that makes sense. She is such a gentle soul, a blanket, a teddy bear, a journal, a kind heart, that I am proud to call my therapist, even if I view her more as a spiritual healer.
I spend some precious time with Beautiful Spirit today and she warmed my heart and made me feel beautiful for a moment...
I Heart You Beautiful Spirit and Thanking God tonight for your presence in my life!
Safety! It is something many take for granted. I have been given this gift again. I met a beautiful stranger that helped to put this concept back into my life.
Bethie, awww Bethie, my sweet, giggly little bundle of joy. 4 Years old and full of spunk and life, with a tongue that never shuts up. Hee hee.
This beautiful stranger took Bethie for a walk the other day at the hospital. (As we are inpatient right now in a woman's trauma ward.) Our heart is smiling for what Claire has done for us. She had not one ounce of embarrassment or judgement in her and we appreciate her a great deal. Claire took us out on an adventure to get a $10 salad. We helped her to pick out just what she wanted in her salad.
The only hard part is that I wish I didn't just have pieces of our $10 Adventure but the whole outing. I remember Bethie and Claire J-Walking across the street and a brief chat around Law and Order SVU. Also waiting inside the Salad place with Mr.Monks in hand. =)
After being sexually assaulted in our apartment we were left with feeling completely unsafe, lost, afraid, and alone.
Claire offered an awesome suggestion to leave us feeling safe. Many times in our life we feel unsafe, unheard, and miss understood. We never felt any of these things with Claire. She made Bethie feel safe enough to come out. We feel like she heard how much we are hurting and there was no judgement in her presence what so ever.
Claire made us feel okay about things for the first time since the assault. Like a deep breath and a big hug. Regardless what we decide to do around the suggestion, for the first time, it feels like enough. Enough is something we never get to really have or feel. It always feels, never enough, good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, just never enough. Thanks Claire for giving us the feeling of enough.
That $10 Salad walk was the turning around point to the road of healing again. Although we are still struggling inside and out we have hope again that things may start getting better, that the hard times will not hit so hard or last as long. We know there will be times when it still gets tough but hope, hope is what will get us to the other side.
Once again Claire, thanks so much. May your small deed be known for the greater impact it had on us. We now are sitting in the apartment alone and for the first time feeling a moment of contentment. May you always have your beautiful heart girl!
Hope you enjoyed the salad, broccoli and all! LOL Big Safe Hugs! ~Valynn and Bethie!
Beautiful Spirit, PDoc P, Safety Queen, CP, Catt, Taryn, Erin, Ray, Doreen, April, Cindee, Carron, Sally.... (will keep adding)
Waiting for changes to carry you away...
But you can't go farther than my heart can go,
Cause I'll still be loving you through the sadness and the madness here
and I'll always be with you in the distance that has taken you from me...
Thanks for these words Plumb They are quite fitting when I think of her. ♥
She wants to tell her: "You remind me of someone."
When she replies: ~Oh yeah...who?
She'd say: "Someone I've never met but sometimes, I dream of her."
Because she thinks: "She's pretty cool for a grown-up." ~Tracey Age 9
The Littles, mostly Bethie and Tracey wanted to give
our one on one therapist, "Queen Saftey" a hug today
so we thought this would be a nice way to
share that with her and for them.
They agreed this would be good for them too,
as we cannot see her on the weekend of course.
~The littles adore her, wonder if she knows just how much. ~
Today she told me I was loveable! It put a smile on my face and in my heart. It gave me the strength I needed to make it one more day. Thanks PDoc P!
Nothing hurts! (She tweeted back again!!!!)
Mack is one of mah idols…this, THIS!, simply made my day! ~Love ya Mack P < 3
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